Its the middle of the night and......

I cannot sleep, no way, no how. I am tired, very tired (thank goodness for spell check!) but I cannot sleep. It is nearly 1am. I can hardly breath from being so freaking sick, meds are doing very little with the sinus issue.....and laying down makes it all worse! That and I am nervous.
I am scared of the apt at 10 for Nomuken. She will be getting glasses this I know. Her vision in her right eye is between 200-400 over 20. She needs gasses for sure. My worry is that the word surgery has been dropped, eye surgery. It scares me, terrifies me! She has a wondering eye, its bad, I know this, anyone that talks to her and looks her in the eye can see this, but I don't care for the words eye and surgery around my 3 yr old!
She on the other hand is out like a light, she knows about the tests, and the glasses, she wants them in purple, thank you very much! The rest of it she has no idea about, I don't feel the need to scare her. Where is Geromy you ask? Is he up worrying with me? NOPE! Snoring away next to me! Just like a man.....mom's tend to worry about everything I guess.
On a side note I get to go to the doctor sometime this week....I burned my fingers bad! Funny, embarrassing story there: Our oven is crap, it stopped working again! So I was trying to figure out what happened....I had it on (450) and had my hand in there feeling for the heat. Gabe comes around the corner and scares me, I move my hand up and hit the top heat coil. By the way, the bottom one is the busted one, the top one is just fine.....and the smell of flesh burning while I was trying to pull my fingers off the coil was horrible.
45 min of straight ice on it! It is discolored, swollen and sore as hell, 2 days later. Geromy has talked me into seeing a doc. I know I need to, I don't want this infected, but I also don't want to have to explain what happened to a doctor. Simple for the fact that I don't want to be laughed at!
Speaking of laughing.....I heard a song, an older country song the other day, made me cry...reminded me of my son, Gabe.
The song is by Mark Wills, its called "don't laugh at me"