Sometimes.....

I want to be told I am wrong....Deze had an appointment this morning, with Children's Mental health.....they too think that she has aspergers. I am thrilled that someone is listening, and willing to help her. In the same breathe I want to cry, I so wanted them to tell me I was nuts and she is normal.
I know she is perfect in her own way, I know that we are lucky she is mainly healthy otherwise....yet at the same time its so much stress all the time, so much yelling (not by me, by the kids)
Gabe has been high stress lately...every tiny thing is setting him off. I mean you look toward him and its screaming melt down time. I think he is tired, but I cannot get him to sleep more then a few hours a night. I am not sure of how to handle him sometimes. Other then staying calm with him....I do not understand his world.
I feel like Tajia and Nomuken get left in the dark sometimes. I am trying to change this, we have special days now where one kid gets to go with either mom or dad somewhere special. Even as simple as walmart they are thrilled!
I have had to explain to Tajia alot lately that she is a lucky girl. She screams for a 200 dollar toy....and tells me I am horrible when I tell her no. So I changed it up and had a talk with her, let her know that she is a lucky kiddo. She does not get hit, spanked, screamed at.....or many of the other things that both Geromy and I got as kids.
She does however get time outs....and points removed if she does not listen or throws fits....she is now realizing this is not the end of the world, and that she is in control of loosing the points, all she has to do is listen! Its nice when you can reason with them!
I need to clean off the desk, but I have no energy today at all. I feel drained. Its dark and snowing out, and cold as hell......the house is clean other then the desk so hopefully its not the end of the world!
Next up....what to make for dinner?
We got all the xmas pics taken for the cards last night, non of which are on here! They came out really good, I got a total of 4 pics with Gabe in them.....about 100 of my hams...I mean girls.
I need a good book, comfy jammies and a hot cup of cocoa or tea.........