Summer time!

Summer time is here full force! Its nice and hot out and the kids are having fun in the pool almost daily. I would love to be able to take them to the lake, but with Deze who drinks the water, its not going to happen.
Between the school and some other people (not doctors) telling me that they think that Deze is normal, I was starting to doubt my own instincts for a while. I was starting to think that maybe I was just a bad mom, and didn't deal with her in the way I should....
Then it hit me. EVERY doctor, shrink and professional that has ever seen her sees that something is off within the first 3 min. The last one literally asked me "how the hell does the school NOT see this!" In the first 2 min of her seeing Deze. She works with GIRLS with autism.

On the outside she does appear normal. And she even mimics things enough she can fit in for a while. Till she starts to chew on her hands, or pull out her hair...or bit someone, scream and fall to the ground while scratching her face and head butting the floor. NOT normal things for a child that is 4yr 9 months old.

Dezire HAS autism. Dezire is NOT a normal kid. She is a hell of a lot of work. She needs to be watched around the clock. She sleeps 2-3 hours a night, and its not in a row. She bites herself, and other self harming things. She runs from me not knowing there is danger. She is a handful, but she is MINE, and I love her. I don't care what on lookers think. If they think that she is a "very mild" case, they can kiss it. Please people stop judging till you walk a mile....don't come into MY home and see her for 30 min and ASSume that you know what is going on. If you want to be a judge, where a black robe and a hammer thingie, then leave me alone!